In light of the news lately, I had to speak up.
It’s been almost a year since I’ve written to you. I needed to turn all my energies inwards and I had nothing left to give.
I spent the last several months of my life on a journey of self discovery, and found myself unable to look at you. You who were supposed to bring me such joy. You who were supposed to be a source of strength I could turn to when I felt alone. You became, like many other things, a burden.
I turned further inwards. There is no relief to be found in turning inwards when your insides are a dark place. I turned further inwards, but I made sure to bring my chemicals with me inside. That way doesn’t work.
It was a relief to tell myself it was okay not to talk to you right now because I had better things to do. We both know that was a lie. I had worse things to do and I did them.
That way doesn’t work either. I checked a few times, to be sure. So I return to you tonight. A broken solider on the broad highway. It’s all about the journey as they say. I don’t feel lost anymore, I found my way. I am so filled with gratitude when I repeat this truth to myself in the mornings, I cry. Tears of joy. I cried and one of your daughters held me in her arms while I did so.
I will remember it for the rest of the days of my life. Life is so precious, so fragile, so beautiful! I don’t want to miss it. I don’t want to make any being miss it. I don’t want to pay someone else to make another being miss it. These are all bad things. I don’t want to do bad things anymore.
I ate one of your daughters in January. Only a few bites, and the ones I loved dined with me. Her flesh was beautifully seasoned, raised on my mother’s farm, grassfed, happy. A dead cow.
I don’t want to eat anyone anymore. I wish everyone would stop. I wish you would stop. I wish you understood that veganism is a moral baseline. But I cannot tell you what to do, all I can do is present you with information and hope that you come to the right conclusions.
You might still be wondering to yourself, what news? What is this girl talking about? I’m talking about this: